On Sun, 3 Nov 1996 17:11:34 +0100 WeeZ <Weezer@dma.be> writes:
quoted 90 lines Yeah I know this ain't got shit to do with music but since my mind is
>Yeah I know this ain't got shit to do with music but since my mind is
>imploding like a bad oxygene waxed barrel I really need some advice
>here
>concerning nothin' else then... yep... a girl...
>
>Since you oughta think right now I'm a nerd with social/psychological
>problems, well you're wrong, I'm a totally devoted lunatic enjoying
>tripmusic and weird soundart. But, although some things are even for
>me too
>crazy to understand so here's the story.
>
>I know a girl for about 1 year and a half now. And ever since the last
>8
>months I know her VERY good, in the classroom we always (ALWAYS) were
>sitting next to eachother, I tell her everything she tells me
>everythin', ya
>know the normal friends stuff. Too damn the thing I was afraid of
>happened.
>I fell in love with her, can you imagine the feeling of falling in
>love with
>your BEST girlfriend who knows about everything from you. Well it's
>nice
>(yep it rulez that's for sure). For about 7 months now I have been
>living
>with a tremendous feeling of love, almost undiscribable let's say my
>heart
>makes sounds like the new FSOL CD. She knows I love her, but she just
>wants
>me as a very good friend because (and that's what I don't believe) she
>hasn't fell in love with me. She likes me, she thinks I'm nice, she
>appreciates my prescence whenever she's got trouble...
>Now, the last couple of weeks I go out alot with her to party's, the
>movies,
>ya know the regular normal stuff. One thing though, yesterday I took
>her too
>a party where also a very good friend of mine was, she already seen
>him a
>few times but she doesn't really know him. What happened? Yeah you can
>probably hear it coming. I was having fun all night long, sometimes
>when I
>talked to her I took her in my arms (on friends-base so... nothing
>wrong,
>I'm a decent guy) but at 3 'o clock in the morning that friend of me
>comes
>to me and says they (she and him) have a problem. She's in love with
>him and
>he loves her too. Ever since they told me that (they aren't even a
>couple
>yet or even haven't kissed eachother) my brain is melting, my sense of
>life
>is gone and the only thing I wanna do is cry and leave this LAME
>planet. I
>had a good talk with her and she says it's impossible for her to have
>my
>friend as a boyfriend because it's too difficult for me and it's not
>fair
>and what kind of reasons some one can come up with. Now the problem.
>Do I
>need to HOPE for the time she MIGHT become my girlfriend and then why
>didn't
>she fell in love with me yet? Is she scared too loose our friendship?
>We're
>almost three times a week together. If she has my friend as a
>boyfriend I
>can forget the movies, the times being with her, the stupid kisses I
>got
>whenever I didn't see her for a week... I just can't live with this
>any longer.
>
>I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO BEGIN...
>
>Some one with a decent, clear way of thinking out there, or some one
>with
>the same problem or whatever, PLEASE help me because I'm approaching
>the
>border of life.
>
>I'M SO MADLY IN LOVE (I never had it THIS worse and for such a LONG
>time...)
>
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>
I have a few words of advice for you and your situation, they may
or may not help you-it all depends on how you take them.
A very wise man (my 12th grade american lit. teacher) once told
me this:
** "Girls are like a subway train. If you miss one, there will
be another one along in 10 minutes." **
And it is very true. There are tons of girls out there, and there
are probably more than you can count who would give you the same feelings
as this particular girl you are so bent over. You can't just let ONE
girl, no matter how wonderful she is, let you get yourself so down, man!
I know, I've been there.
It's not a pretty place to be in your life, but we all get
depressed sometimes. You just have to learn how to deal with it. You
have to let it go.
If you dwell on such negative things as this, they will only
suck you down. I'm sure there are people out there that care about you,
so don't think that this world is just an empty loveless pit, or
whatever.
There is one main thing you need to do, and that is: DON'T BE
SOOOOOO DAMN HARD ON YOURSELF!!!!!! Take it in stride. Be able to just
breathe it out and learn from it, because that is the only way you will
begin to heal yourself.
Well, here comes the next train........wish me luck.
Keep your head up,
morricide